Life being pregnant with Triplets has its ups and downs. One day you could feel GREAT and like you could run a marathon and other days you can't make it through the day without aching somewhere on your body.
Things are EXTREMELY different with triplets; your body can not handle things as easy as you can with just one. The unfortunate thing is you attribute all the crazy things to "I am pregnant with triplets; it’s not a big deal." The thing is things happen that you honestly cannot ignore that I have been.
Last weekend I was not feeling well, Honestly I have been feeling weird for weeks but I ignored it. I started cramping Thrusday and tried to just take it easy but then Friday rolled around and the cramping became worse. I couldn't get comfortable. I called the Doctor and she advised me to go to the Hospital, it wasn't a joking matter....
Fear set in!! "I am not ready for this, How can I leave Alli, The Babies need more time, I need Eric.. :*(" The tears began to flow like a water fall and I couldn't gain composure.
Alli walked in the room and I fought like heck to swallow my tears, She ran over to me and said "MOMMY WHAT HAPPENED?!?!?!" I said "I am ok sweetie, Mommy just doesn't feel too well.” “Why Mommy?” She asked. I said “ I might have to go to the hospital so the Doctors can check on the Babies." She looked at me with the sweetest face and said "It’s going to be ok Mommy!! OH NO!! There are tears on your face!! Why are you crying Mommy??" I said "Because I love you soooo Much and don't want to be away from you" Innocently she said " well that’s ok Mommy, I will just go with you and help the Doctors make you better and then we can come home tonight and cuddle!!" She ran into the bathroom and got me a tissue and wiped away my tears and hugged me sooo hard.
She ran into her room and grabbed her Lambie and said "Hold this Mommy, it always makes me feel better when I don’t feel good."
I couldn't help but smile and forget for a moment everything I was afraid of. I thought, who is being the parent now?? My little girl is only 2 and she has such an amazing way to erase all my pain and fears in such a innocent way. Nothing in this world is that bad that a little girls love couldn’t erase. I choked back the tears and smiled at her and said “ Allison, you make Mommy sooo HAPPY!! I am sooo proud of you and how amazing of a little girl you are!! You are going to be such a GREAT big sister” She smiled from Ear to Ear and said “Thank you Mommy!!”
God works such miracles in us!!! We often over look the simple ways he shows us he is with us and loves us. And in the sweet gestures of my little girl I felt the overwhelming love and knew I could do handle anything .
I got us cleaned up and went over to my parent’s house to try to relax and see if I could make the cramps go away. After a really nice lunch I was feeling better but started feeling short of breath.
Eric came home shortly after that and wanted to go to the Hospital. I again started to panic but after a few hours of the cramping not stopping I agreed to go.
We spent a few hours in Labor and Delivery and the Doctors were able to determine that I had an infection that needed some antibiotics. I also have started to dilate and I need to take things REALLY easy the next few weeks.
The truth is I have been doing way too much!! I have not rested like the Doctors have told me to, I have continued living life the best I could making Alli's Days the best I can. Unfortunately I just CAN'T do that anymore.
The nights are soooo long when my body aches from the constant movement and Go Go Go attitude I have held on to this ENTIRE pregnancy. That in turn makes for long days because I am tired... It’s a vicious circle!!
Tuesday the 11th I have a Doctor’s appointment and they will be telling us the date of the C-section. I am happily anticipating that moment to finally see the day in view. I am not looking forward to possibly being told I have to stay in the Hospital.
We have Allison's Birthday Party on the 16th because I was worried that I would be in the Hospital on her Real Birthday, so I just don't want them to tell me I have to stay and can't go home. I just need one more week and want to be there for her Birthday party!!!
Prayers are always appreciated!! We just want to make it to 32 weeks which is in about 2 1/2 weeks so please keep the prayers coming!! I will try to update with the news of C-section ASAP
Much Love,
Anne,Eric, Allison, Brandon, Alexis, Dawson and our Dog Brophy
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