Life's Changes

Well the babies are here and all doing well, and our family is slowly adjusting to the changes.

Having triplets and a csection is totally different in many ways from just having one. With a natural birth you get to bond with your Baby immediately, having a csection you are in surgery, you have to recover and then a few hours later you finally see them and the meds have your mind messed up. For me I knew they were my babies, I knew I loved them but it really took till the evening when I was finally feeling better... Well the next day to be honest to actually feel what was going on.

Life in the NICU; Well it has its pros and cons. The babies are in SUCH GOOD HANDS, you feel soo comfortable in there because you watch them care for your little ones like they would their own family. You bond with the staff and they start to feel like family... The babies are all healthy, getting stronger every day and an ABSOLUTE JOY!! They are really GOOD babies!! So when the staff gets assigned to them they always say they love it because they only need to be loved on, fed and changed. The other babies in there are not in good shape, they need ALLOT of care and I feel SOOOO BLESSED that God didn't put me in those parents shoes!!!!

Then the downside is leaving them to come home. You have the surgery, you've held, seen, and bonded with your Babies and now you are going home empty handed. Your mind cannot comprehend the situation. You feel like your heart is beetling out of your chest... Yet you are surviving one painful step in front of the other.

Then a few days after traveling back and forth you finally except it for what it is and let God and the AMAZING STAFF do their job and you just move forward everyday just waiting for the day when they say " you can take them home"

I thought the pregnancy was hard but it's the after that is the hardest. Allison isn't aloud in the NICU so that makes "normal" life hard. We have taken her with us and let her play in the Ronald McDonald room and hang out with us. But... The whole day it was taking shifts who was with Allison and who was with the Babies. The ride up to the Hospital is filled with excitement and the road home is exhaustion. Every night we come home we crash, we are so tired that all we want to do is sleep. And yet all I want to do is talk to Alli and hear about her day, I want to hug and kiss her and never let go, but it's soooo late that we all need sleep. The mornings are filled with rushing around, getting ready and before we know it someone's here to pick up Alli or we're dropping her off somewhere and it's up to the Hospital we go... An hour away.

From the Moment Allison was born she really has never left my side. She never spent the night anywhere, she would only be with someone for a few hours so I could run to an appointment or go to a reception so this time really feels like I am being pulled in a million directions. I want soooo badly to be with Allison but I also want her to have good days and play with her friends and family. I feel selfish that I want to keep her with us because I know hanging out at a hospital isn't fun but when I am with the Babies I miss her so much it hurts. When I am home all I can think about is getting back to the Hospital but the thought of not being with Alli ANOTHER DAY brakes my heart!!

My Family and Friends have been AMAZING!! They will watch Alli for us and take her places and she ALWAYS IS SMILING when she is with them so I know she is doing fine with everything. It's Eric and I who struggle with the tug of war feeling on our hearts.

"I honestly couldn't tell you how we do it" is my answer to people when they ask. I say " God has me wrapped in cotton and I am just taking it one day at a time" everyday we go in there is better news on how the babies are, the light at the end of the tunnel gets brighter every day and we pray that the day they will be coming home is sooner than later.

So outside of the truth on life in the NICU, life is really good!!! Tired all the time, yes but that comes with the teritory, you just roll with it and pray that ONE day they all will sleep through the night... And one day so will I... With my family all together again... The Talbot Family of 6.

Last day of pregnancy....

Well we did it, we made it "full term" for Triplets!!! It's a bitter sweet feeling today. I'm done being pregnant but the reality of what life is going to be is hard to swallow. It's the fear of the unknown, the loss of our little family but the growth of something greater than I could ever imagine!!

I keep remembering the day Alli was born and the overwhelming joy I felt the moment she took her first breath and how all I could think of was that God truly exists, he loves and trusts ME enough to have sent me down THE MOST BEAUTIFUL baby to raise as MY OWN, how amazing of a feeling that was.. And that was just one baby. I almost cant describe the overwhelming feeling I feel to know that we will have that moment THREE TIMES!!

Oh how I often question things like why me, why God did you choose us to be given this task to raise your miracles, how am I ever going to love all my babies enough that NONE of them ever feel slighted and the answers always come to me the same.... "I choose you because
You have the ability to love beyond your reach, you will raise them to the best of your abilitys and you will sacrifice things to make sure EVERYONE KNOWS BEYOND A SHADOW OF DOUBT that THEY WERE BORN INTO AN AMAZING FAMILY"

I'm not saying life is going to be easy... By any means but I will say I'm ready for the journey. I may not be able to provide the lavish Christmas's we were given growing up, or spoil them like we did Alli BUT... We will do our best to make every day special and no one will EVER be short on love.

As I sit here a million things roll through my head, a million people to Thank for the love and support, the kind words that got me through the ups ans downs of the pregnancy, the hands that held me when I thought I was going to fall apart, the hugs that warmed my heart from EVERYONE, EVEN STRAINGERS... This journey has truly proven beyond a shadow of doubt to me that no matter what, in times of need there are GOOD PEOPLE OUT THERE who LOVE US, SUPPORT US AND WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR US! But the number one thing I've learned is what it TRUELY feels to be humbled to your knees and to feel the existence and power of FAITH, AND PRAYER!! With out God in our lives or the prayers all over the world that we received I don't know how this would have been possible. I learned what it was like to walk by Faith, to hand your life over to God and Not ask or take it back!! I learned that.... Something's just can't be explained you just trust in the Lord that he knows what he is doing and you Believe he will NEVER let you down!! I am not an old woman but the knowledge and faith I have received thought this pregnancy has matured my soul beyond words.

The DAY I ENTER HEAVEN I WILL GO WITH THE MEMORIES AND THANKS, THE BLESSINGS PEOPLE GAVE US WITH YOUR LOVE and kindness AND I WILL FALL TO MY KNEES AT JESUS'S FEET!! I will Thank him for everything he did and FOR LOVING ME ENOUGH TO HAVE BLESSES ME WITH SUCH AN AMAZING LIFE!! In the ups and downs in life I AM THANKFUL HE LOVED ME ENOUGH TO DO EVERYTHING HE DID FOR US, AND TO BELIEVE IN ME!!

The love we've felt is overwhelming, the support from people ALL OVER has left me speechless, I am and always have been someone who when touched by something tears up but this feeling goes beyond just tears.... It has stopped me in my tracks, taken my breath away, opened my eyes to things I couldn't ever imagine.... When I say "I feel sooooo blesses".... Those words often times aren't enough....

I want each and everyone who has been there for us, Family, Friends, Aquaitences, even STRAINGERS to know YOU HAVE TOUCHED OUR LIVES, You will always hold a place in my heart and I will NEVER FORGET THE LOVE AND KINDNESS YOU HAVE GIVEN US... NEVER!!!

Life is about to change drastically and I can't wait to share this journey with ALL OF YOU!!

MUCH LOVE AND THANKS!!
Anne, Eric. Allison, Brandon, Alexis, Dawson, and our dog Brophy.