Well we did it, we made it "full term" for Triplets!!! It's a bitter sweet feeling today. I'm done being pregnant but the reality of what life is going to be is hard to swallow. It's the fear of the unknown, the loss of our little family but the growth of something greater than I could ever imagine!!
I keep remembering the day Alli was born and the overwhelming joy I felt the moment she took her first breath and how all I could think of was that God truly exists, he loves and trusts ME enough to have sent me down THE MOST BEAUTIFUL baby to raise as MY OWN, how amazing of a feeling that was.. And that was just one baby. I almost cant describe the overwhelming feeling I feel to know that we will have that moment THREE TIMES!!
Oh how I often question things like why me, why God did you choose us to be given this task to raise your miracles, how am I ever going to love all my babies enough that NONE of them ever feel slighted and the answers always come to me the same.... "I choose you because
You have the ability to love beyond your reach, you will raise them to the best of your abilitys and you will sacrifice things to make sure EVERYONE KNOWS BEYOND A SHADOW OF DOUBT that THEY WERE BORN INTO AN AMAZING FAMILY"
I'm not saying life is going to be easy... By any means but I will say I'm ready for the journey. I may not be able to provide the lavish Christmas's we were given growing up, or spoil them like we did Alli BUT... We will do our best to make every day special and no one will EVER be short on love.
As I sit here a million things roll through my head, a million people to Thank for the love and support, the kind words that got me through the ups ans downs of the pregnancy, the hands that held me when I thought I was going to fall apart, the hugs that warmed my heart from EVERYONE, EVEN STRAINGERS... This journey has truly proven beyond a shadow of doubt to me that no matter what, in times of need there are GOOD PEOPLE OUT THERE who LOVE US, SUPPORT US AND WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR US! But the number one thing I've learned is what it TRUELY feels to be humbled to your knees and to feel the existence and power of FAITH, AND PRAYER!! With out God in our lives or the prayers all over the world that we received I don't know how this would have been possible. I learned what it was like to walk by Faith, to hand your life over to God and Not ask or take it back!! I learned that.... Something's just can't be explained you just trust in the Lord that he knows what he is doing and you Believe he will NEVER let you down!! I am not an old woman but the knowledge and faith I have received thought this pregnancy has matured my soul beyond words.
The DAY I ENTER HEAVEN I WILL GO WITH THE MEMORIES AND THANKS, THE BLESSINGS PEOPLE GAVE US WITH YOUR LOVE and kindness AND I WILL FALL TO MY KNEES AT JESUS'S FEET!! I will Thank him for everything he did and FOR LOVING ME ENOUGH TO HAVE BLESSES ME WITH SUCH AN AMAZING LIFE!! In the ups and downs in life I AM THANKFUL HE LOVED ME ENOUGH TO DO EVERYTHING HE DID FOR US, AND TO BELIEVE IN ME!!
The love we've felt is overwhelming, the support from people ALL OVER has left me speechless, I am and always have been someone who when touched by something tears up but this feeling goes beyond just tears.... It has stopped me in my tracks, taken my breath away, opened my eyes to things I couldn't ever imagine.... When I say "I feel sooooo blesses".... Those words often times aren't enough....
I want each and everyone who has been there for us, Family, Friends, Aquaitences, even STRAINGERS to know YOU HAVE TOUCHED OUR LIVES, You will always hold a place in my heart and I will NEVER FORGET THE LOVE AND KINDNESS YOU HAVE GIVEN US... NEVER!!!
Life is about to change drastically and I can't wait to share this journey with ALL OF YOU!!
MUCH LOVE AND THANKS!!
Anne, Eric. Allison, Brandon, Alexis, Dawson, and our dog Brophy.
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