Well it's been a while since our last update, life is as usual busy in the Talbot household. Seems like life is going much faster now that Alli is in school, The weeks fly by and before we know it the weekend is over we're starting all over again. I cannot believe how fast time flies now and I remember when I was younger my grandparents telling me that life is so short and to enjoy each and every moment Because before you know it you're looking back on your life and wondering where the time went.
I can now fully understand what they were trying to tell me!! OnTuesday, October 23 Allison will turn four years old, and it feels like just yesterday I was holding her in my arms the day she was born. I look at her and I am so proud of who she is becoming, She is so kind, so loving, and an absolute joy to have around!! Her beauty is not only on her outside but on her inside as well!! I honestly don't know what I would do without her, she has been such an amazing help for me this last past year with the triplets and making sure our days go smooth. She is an amazing help and it is even better sister!!
She has started to have a small issue with separation anxiety, and it absolutely breaks my heart to see her struggle with it!! When going to school or going to dance class for that hour before she would tell me how much she's going to miss me, And almost goes into a panic when it's time for her to go. I reassure her that I am always with her and when her heart beats it's me telling her "I'm here, I'm here"
That seems to help her a little bit, but I would do anything to take that feeling away from her!!
Life with the triplets is always an adventure, Dawson went from just rolling to now crawling and even trying to stand. He never ceases to amaze me and is always happy and laughing.
Brandon has been rolling for a long time, she has been scooting backwards in order to get around the room. He just recently learned how to army crawl and is so happy with himself and when he does it she starts laughing. He sometimes gets frustrated with things and chooses to yell at us, it used to be comical but,now it's a bit frustrating for all of us. I finally taught him how to use his signs to help out when he is frustrated
Alexis, one of the happiest baby I have ever seen is still content to just sit where you put her, but as she watches her brothers scurry around the living room floor you can see it in her eyes she wants to move to. Her talking has taken off, and she's trying so hard to mimic things that we say to her.
All three of the babies are trying so hard to have us understand them. I began to teach them sign language as I did with Allison, and Brandon is the only one who is truly interested in getting that form of communication out. The other two just want to try to say it instead of using the sign. Although it's mumbled and jumbled and often times Jus babble, I am able to understand them.... Although I could guarantee no one else could.
Eric's job keeps him very busy majority of the time so being with the children by myself can be very rewarding and at the same time very tiring!! If given the opportunity I wouldn't change my life for the world, So when things get hard I remind myself how blessed this time is and how much I will miss it when it's over.
The number one question I am always ask, is how do you do it? And my response to them is "it's hard at times, but when I prayed to God for children I could never have imagined been so blessed with such perfect children" I wish I could say I'm just a mother who loves her children so much that I cannot see their flaws, but I one hundred percent, wholeheartedly could tell you that my children are excellent children!!! When God shows my children, he chose four of the most perfect children to give me. They are happy, content, loving, and honestly a joy to be around!!!
So as life at the Talbot household enters into the holiday season, I hope that I will be able to update soon, but if not I would like to wish you all a wonderful and blessed Holiday season!!!
Much love always,
The Talbot Family of 6
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Friday, October 19, 2012
Saturday, September 8, 2012
September catch up
It has been way too long since I have been able to update this blog. Summer flew by spending time with friends and family.
We also got Cedar point passes this year and enjoy going and watching the children have a wonderful time. We also went to soak city, the whole family and thanks to my best friend Abby and her Mama Deb we were able to enjoy our time there.
I cannot thank them enough for making our life so wonderful, they are an amazing help all the time! Anytime I ever need help, I can always count on Abby to be there for me. She has never once told me no, even though I know she's busy she is such an amazing help, and amazing friend, and a sister from God!! The Thompson family has always made me feel so loved, and so special! I am definitely blessed with extended family like them!!
Before we knew it school was starting for Eric. he got a promotion this year, becoming a high school principal!! What a blessing that was to him, and to all of us! He has worked so hard for this and I couldn't happier for him to know that his dreams are slowly becoming a reality.
Also, Allison started her first day of school at the end of August. What an adjustment of lifestyle that has been for all of us!! Alli was so excited to go to school, dressed absolutely beautiful and had her book bag on waiting to go to school. I sat there and watched her as she was filled with excitement to be starting her first day of school and my heart ached that my little girl was growing up so fast. I took her to school and she smiled and looked around at the other children. All I wanted to do was to turn back time. We took the usual photos that all parents do, getting them in front of your house, and showing how your little girl grows up in front of your front door. We also took the pictures walking into school and standing with her name tag. I watched as she walked into the room like such a big girl and she wasn't even phased that I had to go. As I walked out of the school my heart began to pound and the tears filled my eyes, I wanted to be as brave as she was but deep down inside all i wanted to do was cry. I got in my car and the tears began to flow, my little girl is growing up. I let myself cry for a few minutes as I drove home and then I remembered her beautiful smiling face. I thought if she could be strong and so could I. I waited until 3 o'clock to go pick her up, I drove to the school with all three babies and myself and waited in the parking lot to go in and get her, I was filled with so much excitement I couldn't wait. I walked inside and as I watched her in the classroom smiling, I was relieved to know that my little girl was just fine. And each day since she is extremely excited to go back, I couldn't be more proud of her!! She also started ballet and tap class on September 5, and loves it!! I can't help but giggle as I watch them and the monitor dancing away and having a good time. The little ballerinas all lined up in a row I've the sweetest thing I've ever seen!!
The babies are growing up so fast, each one of them have taken on their own personality, yet they are so much alike. They are nine months now and soon to be 10 months on September 12. Brandon now has three teeth and the cutest smile to show them off. Lexie broke two teeth shortly after Brandon did, and I little sweet Dawson still has no teeth, but a sweet toothless grin. Dawson is on the verge of crawling, it will happen any day now. Brandon is shortly behind him, but loves to scoot backwards on his back, he is definitely mobile!! Alexis is still content to just sit there and be sweet, she loves to say hello wave hi and bye-bye, and loves to dance to music or with anyone who wants to dance with her.
The babies are now eating solid foods, any time you eat anything around them they all start to fuss wanting to taste whatever you have. I never could've imagined how wonderful it was to have triplets until I had my very own. I was like everyone else thinking how hard it must be to do it but, now being on the other and I wouldn't change my life for the world. Yes, it's busy. Yes it's hard!! Do I ever sit down… Sometimes. How do I get anything done?? I really couldn't tell you, but I do. Do you ever have time for yourself? Yes, I make sure I have time for myself. Baby Einstein's, and cartoons for Alli, give me a little time to exercise and sit down for just a few minutes. No, the TV is not our babysitter, but it gives me five seconds to breathe, and go to the bathroom without a screaming child.
Are the baby sleeping through the night? Were still working on that, but keeping my fingers crossed we might just be there. Last night was the first night we only had to get up four times. Four times may sound a lot to you, but four times to us is a major breakthrough. When getting up 18 to 20 times a night… I'll take four times anytime!!
Do you and Eric ever have time for yourself? Well, we do our best to spend time together, most of our time is together with the children. We are okay with that, we wanted nothing more than to be parents!! So most of our time is with her children but, we do lay in bed and talk about things and laugh, we do make sure that each other knows how much we love each other !! Life is constantly busy, with things always on our plate to get done. But life is amazing! Extremely blessed!! And we love every minute of it!!
Much love,
The Talbot Family of 6
We also got Cedar point passes this year and enjoy going and watching the children have a wonderful time. We also went to soak city, the whole family and thanks to my best friend Abby and her Mama Deb we were able to enjoy our time there.
I cannot thank them enough for making our life so wonderful, they are an amazing help all the time! Anytime I ever need help, I can always count on Abby to be there for me. She has never once told me no, even though I know she's busy she is such an amazing help, and amazing friend, and a sister from God!! The Thompson family has always made me feel so loved, and so special! I am definitely blessed with extended family like them!!
Before we knew it school was starting for Eric. he got a promotion this year, becoming a high school principal!! What a blessing that was to him, and to all of us! He has worked so hard for this and I couldn't happier for him to know that his dreams are slowly becoming a reality.
Also, Allison started her first day of school at the end of August. What an adjustment of lifestyle that has been for all of us!! Alli was so excited to go to school, dressed absolutely beautiful and had her book bag on waiting to go to school. I sat there and watched her as she was filled with excitement to be starting her first day of school and my heart ached that my little girl was growing up so fast. I took her to school and she smiled and looked around at the other children. All I wanted to do was to turn back time. We took the usual photos that all parents do, getting them in front of your house, and showing how your little girl grows up in front of your front door. We also took the pictures walking into school and standing with her name tag. I watched as she walked into the room like such a big girl and she wasn't even phased that I had to go. As I walked out of the school my heart began to pound and the tears filled my eyes, I wanted to be as brave as she was but deep down inside all i wanted to do was cry. I got in my car and the tears began to flow, my little girl is growing up. I let myself cry for a few minutes as I drove home and then I remembered her beautiful smiling face. I thought if she could be strong and so could I. I waited until 3 o'clock to go pick her up, I drove to the school with all three babies and myself and waited in the parking lot to go in and get her, I was filled with so much excitement I couldn't wait. I walked inside and as I watched her in the classroom smiling, I was relieved to know that my little girl was just fine. And each day since she is extremely excited to go back, I couldn't be more proud of her!! She also started ballet and tap class on September 5, and loves it!! I can't help but giggle as I watch them and the monitor dancing away and having a good time. The little ballerinas all lined up in a row I've the sweetest thing I've ever seen!!
The babies are growing up so fast, each one of them have taken on their own personality, yet they are so much alike. They are nine months now and soon to be 10 months on September 12. Brandon now has three teeth and the cutest smile to show them off. Lexie broke two teeth shortly after Brandon did, and I little sweet Dawson still has no teeth, but a sweet toothless grin. Dawson is on the verge of crawling, it will happen any day now. Brandon is shortly behind him, but loves to scoot backwards on his back, he is definitely mobile!! Alexis is still content to just sit there and be sweet, she loves to say hello wave hi and bye-bye, and loves to dance to music or with anyone who wants to dance with her.
The babies are now eating solid foods, any time you eat anything around them they all start to fuss wanting to taste whatever you have. I never could've imagined how wonderful it was to have triplets until I had my very own. I was like everyone else thinking how hard it must be to do it but, now being on the other and I wouldn't change my life for the world. Yes, it's busy. Yes it's hard!! Do I ever sit down… Sometimes. How do I get anything done?? I really couldn't tell you, but I do. Do you ever have time for yourself? Yes, I make sure I have time for myself. Baby Einstein's, and cartoons for Alli, give me a little time to exercise and sit down for just a few minutes. No, the TV is not our babysitter, but it gives me five seconds to breathe, and go to the bathroom without a screaming child.
Are the baby sleeping through the night? Were still working on that, but keeping my fingers crossed we might just be there. Last night was the first night we only had to get up four times. Four times may sound a lot to you, but four times to us is a major breakthrough. When getting up 18 to 20 times a night… I'll take four times anytime!!
Do you and Eric ever have time for yourself? Well, we do our best to spend time together, most of our time is together with the children. We are okay with that, we wanted nothing more than to be parents!! So most of our time is with her children but, we do lay in bed and talk about things and laugh, we do make sure that each other knows how much we love each other !! Life is constantly busy, with things always on our plate to get done. But life is amazing! Extremely blessed!! And we love every minute of it!!
Much love,
The Talbot Family of 6
Time flys when your having FUN!! Written on 6/29/2012
Well, it's been a long time since I have written. Life at the Talbot household is more than I could've ever imagined. We truly are busy, but enjoying every minute of it. All of the children are growing up so fast.
Allison has become one of my greatest helpers, her sweet personality, her kind nature, and loving attitude towards life makes my life so much easier. When the babies wake up in the morning and naps, she always says good morning to them and ask them how they slept. She loves to hug and kiss on the babies, and enjoys every minute of being a big sister.
Being a big sister is something she's extremely proud of, but what she enjoys more than anything is spending "mommy and Alli time" I know how hard it is on my heart feeling pulled in so many directions but, having had three babies come home to a house that she was the one and only has to be much harder on her.So whenever we get time we spend Mommy and Alli time together. she knows how to bring out the kid in me, she reminds me that life isn't so serious, and being silly is so fun. I love watching her face light up when she sees that I'm watching her do things like playing in the park or doing her hair or just being her sweet self that makes life so wonderful. Every night she chooses me to help her go to sleep. We go upstairs we go to the bathroom brush our teeth and going to her room. I let her choose whatever book she wants and we sit and cuddle and read the story sometimes more than once. At the and of her book I will always pray with her, and singing to her her favorite song witches baby mine. After that it's a quick snuggle kiss on the head and we always say the same things I say "I love you Princess, sleep tight don't let the bedbugs bite." And she always says to me "I love you too mommy, sleep tight don't let the bedbugs bite" and even sometimes we say silly things like "I love you to the moon and back" The other day she told me "mommy I love you more than green beans"
My dear Allison, when I was little I always wanted to be a mother, I would pray to God to bless me with children. When you were born I could never in a million years have imagined what the love for a mother and a child. You have filled my heart with so much love, and my days with so much joy and laughter. I will forever promised to do my best to be the mother you deserve, I will forever love you, and I will forever be thankful that God chose you to be my little girl!!!
Written on May 11,2012
Well tonight is the first night the Babies all are in their own room. All four of my Babies all are in their own room and it hit me hard tonight. I have closed a chapter of my life and started another, I want to re read that chapter over and over again and study every part of it, memorize everything so I will never forget a second.
I remember when Allison was a baby and she stayed in our room, I couldn't let her go, I wanted to keep her beside me for ever, maybe the rest of her life if I could but I knew I had to let her sleep in her own room.. Take that next step..I remember the day like it was yesterday and I cried the whole time as I took apart her bed and moved it into her room. I held her soooo tight and when I put her to bed, I hugged Eric and cried. I said our Baby is growing up to fast and we have to find a way to slow down time..
Now the same feelings are coming over me, time is going by way too fast, my babies are growing up way too fast and will be 6 months in two days, Allison will be 4 in October, and I just turned 34 today... Life is going by way too fast.
Life is amazing, watching all my children take milestones is the greatest blessing ever, I wouldn't change anything for the world.
I think I've checked on all four kids six times already and it's only 12:30 :) and I don't think it's the last time I will do that... The thing is they all are sleeping so soundly and I guess I was hoping this transition would be harder. That they would need to be in our room tonight because of some reason and they don't... They are comfortable and happy and I have to let go of this feeling that I feel...
Life is so beautiful, we don't appreciate it when we are going through things and when something changes in our life we look back and say " oh those times were so wonderful, to only have those times back" we learn with every passing faze in our life that life is so short, we grow and learn from our parents, and before we know it our children are teaching us about life.
My children are still very small BUT the lessons they teach me on a daily basis is AMAZING. Just when I think it doesn't get better than this.. It does and they show me something new that shocks me how brilliant of a little person they are and I ALWAYS am FILLED with pride, "that is my baby!!!"
Allison,Brandon, Alexis and Dawson, you have changed my life in a way that NO ONE EVER COULD!! You all are sooooo absolutely perfect to me and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't feel overwhelmed with love for each and every one of you. Someday you are going to say to me " Mom you have told me a million times today at you love me, will you stop!!" and I will respond " oh I'm only getting started, I have a million more before the day is over" so for now, that you are little and tell me you love me back EVERYTIME, or smile your million dollar smiles back. I will tell you till I'm blue in the face, to the whole world, on the top of my lungs " I LOVE MY CHILDREN WITH ALL OF MY HEART!!! To the moon and back, TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!!"
Thursday, April 19, 2012
What my kids are teaching me
Soooo much has happened since I've posted last. Allison is growing up so fast and soooo smart. Often times I think she is too smart for her own good.
She is the greatest helper to me.Loves to help me cook, clean, feed the babies... She reminds me of myself soooo much. I wanted to be just like my parents growing up. Helping my Dad with anything he'd let me and following my Mom everywhere.A lot of the stuff I do with my kids now. She reminds me DAILY to smile and Thank God for our life. She smiles at me and my whole day gets better. She is amazing and I couldn't have asked God for a better little girl. Every day she gets more and more beautiful, her heart is so compassionate and I am sooooooo thankful that she is MY LITTLE GIRL!!!
The Babies, well they are growing up WAY TOO FAST!!! They are at five months now and each one of them are the sweetest babies EVER!! They are SOOOO HAPPY and on April 16 Dawson let out a huge belly laugh and we caught it on camera and the very next day Brandon did the same!! I am so thankful for technology because as soon as they started laughing Eric and I whipped out the IPhone or IPad and caught it.. Forever captured for them to see and hear their first laughs!!
Lexie LOVES TO talk, I swear she is going to be VERY SMART!! She will talk to you as long as you will listen and if the time in the day didn't go so fast I would listen forever!! The boys are doing the same things cooing. ALL FOUR of my babies said Mama first...not that I didn't work on it allot during the day ;). Lexie when looking at Eric calls him "ah D" and Brandon has been known to slip a "Dad" in everyonce in a while. He has said Hi and Bye.. now if he knew what he was saying would be a whole different ball game. Lexie says I love you but it's all cooing words. BUT if you say I-love-you. She mimics your pattern and really pounces the you.
Life with all four of my children is AMAZING, I am a BLESSED WOMAN. Life is stressful at times because I am alone allot during the day but I can do it. Somedays I am counting down the hours till Eric gets home and others the day flew buy and everything was perfect.
I think God chooses certain people to have multiples because he knows we can handle it. That somehow in the madness and craziness of the day we NEVER ask him "why me" I ALWAYS say THANK YOU FOR CHOOSING ME!!!
Allison,Brandon, Alexis, and Dawson,
Life gets better everyday with you, you have taught me soooo much about life. A few things I've learned this week from you.
Alli you taught me to not worry about the little things and worry about what really matters. (you broke something and were so sad,I was more worried about you that I did care about what you broke)
Brandon and Dawson: you two taught me that sometimes in life a moment can become a lifetime memory. Something we will never forget. (your laughing was amazing, sweet and music to my ears)
Alexis you taught me that sometimes a simple hug, smile or even catching someone's eyes can speak so much to someone's soul. ( I was cooking dinner yesterday and I took you in the kitchen with me. I was talking to you like you understood everything I was telling you :) and I looked down at you and we both looked at each other and at the same time smiled. I put down the spoon, rushed over to you and said " OH LEXIE I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH" and hugged you, and you cooed it back to me.)
Everyday we have moments like this with our Kids and we often let them slip through our memory. Not keeping them safe for stories when they get older. I am blessed with a VERY GOOD memory so I don't have to worry about not remembering some things but with four little ones these stories can get mixed up. So I started books for the kids so they can look back at and see how their lives were and how they impacted ours just being who they are, perfect in every way!!!
Thanks for following our lives,
The Talbot Family of 6
She is the greatest helper to me.Loves to help me cook, clean, feed the babies... She reminds me of myself soooo much. I wanted to be just like my parents growing up. Helping my Dad with anything he'd let me and following my Mom everywhere.A lot of the stuff I do with my kids now. She reminds me DAILY to smile and Thank God for our life. She smiles at me and my whole day gets better. She is amazing and I couldn't have asked God for a better little girl. Every day she gets more and more beautiful, her heart is so compassionate and I am sooooooo thankful that she is MY LITTLE GIRL!!!
The Babies, well they are growing up WAY TOO FAST!!! They are at five months now and each one of them are the sweetest babies EVER!! They are SOOOO HAPPY and on April 16 Dawson let out a huge belly laugh and we caught it on camera and the very next day Brandon did the same!! I am so thankful for technology because as soon as they started laughing Eric and I whipped out the IPhone or IPad and caught it.. Forever captured for them to see and hear their first laughs!!
Lexie LOVES TO talk, I swear she is going to be VERY SMART!! She will talk to you as long as you will listen and if the time in the day didn't go so fast I would listen forever!! The boys are doing the same things cooing. ALL FOUR of my babies said Mama first...not that I didn't work on it allot during the day ;). Lexie when looking at Eric calls him "ah D" and Brandon has been known to slip a "Dad" in everyonce in a while. He has said Hi and Bye.. now if he knew what he was saying would be a whole different ball game. Lexie says I love you but it's all cooing words. BUT if you say I-love-you. She mimics your pattern and really pounces the you.
Life with all four of my children is AMAZING, I am a BLESSED WOMAN. Life is stressful at times because I am alone allot during the day but I can do it. Somedays I am counting down the hours till Eric gets home and others the day flew buy and everything was perfect.
I think God chooses certain people to have multiples because he knows we can handle it. That somehow in the madness and craziness of the day we NEVER ask him "why me" I ALWAYS say THANK YOU FOR CHOOSING ME!!!
Allison,Brandon, Alexis, and Dawson,
Life gets better everyday with you, you have taught me soooo much about life. A few things I've learned this week from you.
Alli you taught me to not worry about the little things and worry about what really matters. (you broke something and were so sad,I was more worried about you that I did care about what you broke)
Brandon and Dawson: you two taught me that sometimes in life a moment can become a lifetime memory. Something we will never forget. (your laughing was amazing, sweet and music to my ears)
Alexis you taught me that sometimes a simple hug, smile or even catching someone's eyes can speak so much to someone's soul. ( I was cooking dinner yesterday and I took you in the kitchen with me. I was talking to you like you understood everything I was telling you :) and I looked down at you and we both looked at each other and at the same time smiled. I put down the spoon, rushed over to you and said " OH LEXIE I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH" and hugged you, and you cooed it back to me.)
Everyday we have moments like this with our Kids and we often let them slip through our memory. Not keeping them safe for stories when they get older. I am blessed with a VERY GOOD memory so I don't have to worry about not remembering some things but with four little ones these stories can get mixed up. So I started books for the kids so they can look back at and see how their lives were and how they impacted ours just being who they are, perfect in every way!!!
Thanks for following our lives,
The Talbot Family of 6
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
My letter to my children.
Dear Allison, Brandon, Alexis, and Dawson,
I wanted to write this letter to all of you to tell you how much you all mean to me. I want to first Thank you all for choosing me to be your Mommy and to tell you all what an Honor it is!!
You all have changed my life in a way that NO ONE EVER COULD!! The day you all were born God answered prayers I had prayed for years!! With one look at you all and I was head over heels in love with you. I couldn't have ever imagined loving anyone the way I love you all. It's a love that honestly cannot be explained, and just thinking about you all makes my heart fill with so much love that I sometimes think I could burst!
Allison, the day you were born, I wasn't at all expecting it. Daddy and I were watching a movie and my water broke. I wasn't sure if it was really that or just an accident but sure enough you were ready to come into the world. I wanted to stay at home as long as I could but after being in labor from 10:15pm-1:30am my contractions were almost 4 minutes apart I thought I should get to the hospital. We arrived at the hospital and by 9:23 am you were here. Tears filled my eyes and the love overflowed my heart. We I saw your beautiful face, my heart melted. YOU WERE ABSOLUTELY GEORGIOUS!! I don't know if I will ever have towards to describe to you how amazing I felt that day. All I ever wanted was to be a Mother and my prayers were answered I thus tiny little girl. That whole day I was on cloud nine, I couldn't get enough if you and everyday has been the same. My love for you grows with each passing day and I THANK GOD every day for loving me enough to send you to me!! Allison each day you get even more beautiful and I never stop being amazed by your beauty, your love, sense of humor, and kind spirit. Right now you are only 3 years old but you are wise beyond your years. You constantly challenge yourself and push yourself one step further every day. This past week March 5-10 2012 you taught yourself to whistle, I showed you a few times and we would laugh and giggle about and now you are whistling like a champ!! I think if this little girl puts her mind to anything she could change the world. Because she has changed mine for the better and I am SOOOO BLESSED, I cannot wait to see what your future will be like. :) You tell me you want to be a Mommy like me, a Teacher like Daddy and a Doctor like Grandpa. Who knows you could be all of them and I will be soooo proud of you in whatever field you go in because this world needs more people like you!!
WITH ALL YOUR FIRST BREATHS THAT I HEARD YOU TAKE YOU TOOK MINE AWAY!!
Brandon, Alexis, and Dawson, the day you all were born we knew it was coming but, no matter how much you plan you can never be fully prepared. That morning I thought I was sooo organized but to my surprise I woke up SICK, I couldn't stop throwing up that morning. I had heartburn soooo badly with you all and I was taking meds to keep it at bay but I wasn't allowed to take anything to make it better the morning of the surgery. SO to make a long story short... I had to get a shot at the hospital to stop me from throwing up before the c-section because I couldn't stop on my own. Well delivering C-section is so different than going natural. They make sure you are VERY COMFORTABLE with meds so I wasn’t able to feel a thing. I couldn't see the clock and I didn't get to see your beautiful faces until you all were cleaned up BUT I DID HEAR YOUR CRIES AND IT WAS MUSIC TO MY EARS!!! Lexie, I couldn't hear your cry and I was SOOOOOOO worried about you but Daddy assured me you were ok. The moment I saw you all I was sooooo happy. Brandon you were the first they brought over and you were crying until I talked to you, you stopped crying and made the most perfect frown at me and just said very quiet "wah" I couldn't help but smile at your sweet face. You were the most handsome baby I had ever seen. Dawson you were the next baby to come over to me and you weren't crying at all you were co content, just blinking your beautiful eyes and you might have made a few peeps but that was about it. You were so handsome that I melted just looking at you two and just as I was soaking everything up... They took you two boys to the NICU and I didn't see you till after recovery. Lexie you were struggling to breath so they quickly shower me your face and then rushed you to the NICU, you were sooooo beautiful and all I could think of was God please watch over them, please God help my little girl!! God answered my prayers and 12 days later we all were home as a whole family.
Brandon, you are soooooo sweet!! Recently you have started smiling and cooing and I love every minute of it, we will sit and I will hold you and the moment I say your name its bam ear to ear grinning and I LOVE IT!! You make me sooooooo happy!! Your eyes of Chrystal BLUE are so amazing, each and every thing about you amazes me and I couldn't be more proud of you. You all want to roll over now but you are content most of the time just laying with everyone just relaxing, kicking and smiling all the time Brandon, you are going places sweet boy and I can't wait to see the changes you will make to not only my world but the whole world!!! I can wait to see what you say you want to be when you grow up too!!
Alexis, you are sooo sweet just like your brother, in the morning I say good morning to all of you and you are ALWAYS the first to smile at me. Your beautiful face warms my soul and I can't get enough of your sweet cheeks!! You and I have had the longest talks and you try sooooo hard for me to understand what you are saying, I pretend to and you light up. You like your Brothers have BEAUTIFUL Blue eyes but yours are different I think yours are going to turn Green the fastest. You are so sweet and kind already and I can't wait to see you grow up because you already amaze me and you remind me so much of Allison. I know you will do wonders to this world, I can see you doing something to help others because you are a very compassionate baby already... We will just have to see and I look forward to watching your life unfold!!
Dawson, you are just like Brandon and Alexis, seriously I think you all are the sweetest most caring babies ever!! Your smile is sooo cute!! You make Mommy work for it but when you do smile your whole face lights up and you sometimes don't know how to handle it. You try to be shy and hid your face but you keep your eyes on me when you try. I have anyways melted in your eyes since the moment you were born and even it the NICU I would tell Daddy when we had to go home, Dawson's eyes looking up at me makes it soooo hard to leave. You see Alexis and Brandon always fell asleep before we left but you my little man liked to talk to me and when we left to go home it was sooooo hard to go. Dawson you are growing up so fast already and I love every minute of watching it happen. You are such a fighter and I can see you doing something powerful, or running your own business. Life win you all is so much fun!
Things I think you all need to know:
No matter how hard the obstacle is I front of you, keep going because you can do ANYTHING if you put your mind to it!!
God does hear our prayers, he doesn't always answer them when we want but he does hear them. He has a bigger plan for us so when we as humans are impatient he sometimes makes us wait to fully appreciate things.
Don't ever let anyone tell you or make you feel you’re not good enough. The only way they would tell you that is because they know you can and you are better than them which makes them feel less of a person because of it.
Sometimes in life things happen that we have no control over. We can try to reason with God and pray that he changes the outcome but again it's God has a bigger plan for us. If something like this ever happens PLEASE BABIES!!, DON'T EVER TURN YOUR EYES OFF GOD! Don't get mad at him, he didn't make the situation happen, he doesn't like to see you sad or cry. Take whatever lesson it is and learn from it, grow from it because one day someone is going to need you to help the, through the same situation.
True love does exist, not all people as lucky to find their soul mates but if you do, hold on to them!! Soul mates can be a friend, a family member or the person you are meant to spend your life with.
When you get older you might not like the way Mommy or Daddy want you to act, we might punish you for acting a certain way and you will probably tell us that you think we are unfair, that you hate us, or do something like slam doors... Know we are just doing what is best for you, that we have very high expectations for your life and the even if you hate us at the time, know we love you more than you could ever imagine and we aren't mad at your emotions. We all have been there before and someday we will all laugh at what happened.
Girls, when it comes time to date people... If Daddy ever let's you :) Know that I expect allot from you in your choices. Do not date a man that is beneath you, a man who doesn't respect you or treat you like gold. You are the most BEAUTIFUL girls I have EVER seen and trust me when I say this, there isn't a man out there who is worth your tears!! When you choose someone, make him be someone who makes you laugh, tells you your Beautiful comes from a good family, RESPECTS YOU, and never puts you down, someone whom you trust. If he honks the horn for you to come out and can't come to the door to get you, TRUST ME ladies, he can beep the horn till his car stalls but he will come to the door for you. He should open the doors to places for you, silvery is not dead and you are worth the BEST!! The man you two choose to marry will be loving, kind, he will make you feel amazing, he will make you laugh, he will be kind to the whole family and he will seem to fit in like a glove, he will be a good Christian man and he will know never to hurt you!! Never settle for a man because you are lonely, God is giving you that time to discover who you are and to make you find a place in your heart for him. You will and need to love God so much that he man you marry will have to seek out God to find your heart!
Boys, my expectations for you are the same! Do now ever allow a woman to make you feel less of a man. The woman you choose to date or marry will have a high pedestal to achieve. She must love you for you and NEVER try to change you. She must be kind at heart but tough to protect her Babies. She must be kind to our family, love your brothers and sisters and must respect your Father and I. My house is filled with love; if she ever disrespects you in my house (ladies pay attention) know that it will be very hard for me to welcome them back. There are women out there who will use you, who have only one thing in mind... Again Alli and Lexie pay attention... YOU ARE BETTER THAN THESE PEOPLE!! DO NOT SETTLE EVER!! Know that there is someone out there with your name on their heart and you WILL find them if you love yourself and God enough to wait for them. Life will throw you weeds, trust me I've been there also t you have to go through the weeds to find your Rose, and when you find that person you will understand everything. Life will make sense why you had to go through what you did to get where you will be.
Allison, Brandon, Alexis and Dawson,
Life is not going to be easy, There are really good people and there are some really bad people out there. Love yourself enough to surround yourself with good people. If you find that your friends make you feel bad, don't like who you are and want you to be something or do something that you don't feel is right...GET RID OF THEM!! Friends will come and go, and should NEVER make you do something that if Daddy and I saw you doing that you would be ashamed of yourself for! ALWAYS KEEP YOUR EYES ON GOD, he is watching your every move so the same goes for him, doesn’t ever do something that would upset God to see.
People make mistakes and the object of life is to learn from our mistakes, and grow from them. If you do not learn how you went wrong you will continue to make the same mistakes in life. We are here on earth for one main purpose and that is to prove to God in our actions in life bar we are worthy of his kingdom. If you ever have a Goal in life make this you’re greatest to try to achieve. Make your Father in heaven so proud of you that when you are old and have accomplished everything God set you out to do, that he is SOO PROUD OF YOU that all of Heaven celebrates your homecoming!!
My sweet children, there is nothing you could EVER do that would make me not love you!! I will ALWAYS be here for you in any way you need me and know I will do my best to protect you from harm your whole life. I love you more than words will ever describe.
What I want most for you all is to know that I AM PROUD TO BE YOUR MOTHER!! You have made all my dreams come true, you are and always will be my greatest accomplishment, and when I die the first people I will thank God for is YOU!!
Love you always and forever!! To the moon and back!!,
Mommy
I wanted to write this letter to all of you to tell you how much you all mean to me. I want to first Thank you all for choosing me to be your Mommy and to tell you all what an Honor it is!!
You all have changed my life in a way that NO ONE EVER COULD!! The day you all were born God answered prayers I had prayed for years!! With one look at you all and I was head over heels in love with you. I couldn't have ever imagined loving anyone the way I love you all. It's a love that honestly cannot be explained, and just thinking about you all makes my heart fill with so much love that I sometimes think I could burst!
Allison, the day you were born, I wasn't at all expecting it. Daddy and I were watching a movie and my water broke. I wasn't sure if it was really that or just an accident but sure enough you were ready to come into the world. I wanted to stay at home as long as I could but after being in labor from 10:15pm-1:30am my contractions were almost 4 minutes apart I thought I should get to the hospital. We arrived at the hospital and by 9:23 am you were here. Tears filled my eyes and the love overflowed my heart. We I saw your beautiful face, my heart melted. YOU WERE ABSOLUTELY GEORGIOUS!! I don't know if I will ever have towards to describe to you how amazing I felt that day. All I ever wanted was to be a Mother and my prayers were answered I thus tiny little girl. That whole day I was on cloud nine, I couldn't get enough if you and everyday has been the same. My love for you grows with each passing day and I THANK GOD every day for loving me enough to send you to me!! Allison each day you get even more beautiful and I never stop being amazed by your beauty, your love, sense of humor, and kind spirit. Right now you are only 3 years old but you are wise beyond your years. You constantly challenge yourself and push yourself one step further every day. This past week March 5-10 2012 you taught yourself to whistle, I showed you a few times and we would laugh and giggle about and now you are whistling like a champ!! I think if this little girl puts her mind to anything she could change the world. Because she has changed mine for the better and I am SOOOO BLESSED, I cannot wait to see what your future will be like. :) You tell me you want to be a Mommy like me, a Teacher like Daddy and a Doctor like Grandpa. Who knows you could be all of them and I will be soooo proud of you in whatever field you go in because this world needs more people like you!!
WITH ALL YOUR FIRST BREATHS THAT I HEARD YOU TAKE YOU TOOK MINE AWAY!!
Brandon, Alexis, and Dawson, the day you all were born we knew it was coming but, no matter how much you plan you can never be fully prepared. That morning I thought I was sooo organized but to my surprise I woke up SICK, I couldn't stop throwing up that morning. I had heartburn soooo badly with you all and I was taking meds to keep it at bay but I wasn't allowed to take anything to make it better the morning of the surgery. SO to make a long story short... I had to get a shot at the hospital to stop me from throwing up before the c-section because I couldn't stop on my own. Well delivering C-section is so different than going natural. They make sure you are VERY COMFORTABLE with meds so I wasn’t able to feel a thing. I couldn't see the clock and I didn't get to see your beautiful faces until you all were cleaned up BUT I DID HEAR YOUR CRIES AND IT WAS MUSIC TO MY EARS!!! Lexie, I couldn't hear your cry and I was SOOOOOOO worried about you but Daddy assured me you were ok. The moment I saw you all I was sooooo happy. Brandon you were the first they brought over and you were crying until I talked to you, you stopped crying and made the most perfect frown at me and just said very quiet "wah" I couldn't help but smile at your sweet face. You were the most handsome baby I had ever seen. Dawson you were the next baby to come over to me and you weren't crying at all you were co content, just blinking your beautiful eyes and you might have made a few peeps but that was about it. You were so handsome that I melted just looking at you two and just as I was soaking everything up... They took you two boys to the NICU and I didn't see you till after recovery. Lexie you were struggling to breath so they quickly shower me your face and then rushed you to the NICU, you were sooooo beautiful and all I could think of was God please watch over them, please God help my little girl!! God answered my prayers and 12 days later we all were home as a whole family.
Brandon, you are soooooo sweet!! Recently you have started smiling and cooing and I love every minute of it, we will sit and I will hold you and the moment I say your name its bam ear to ear grinning and I LOVE IT!! You make me sooooooo happy!! Your eyes of Chrystal BLUE are so amazing, each and every thing about you amazes me and I couldn't be more proud of you. You all want to roll over now but you are content most of the time just laying with everyone just relaxing, kicking and smiling all the time Brandon, you are going places sweet boy and I can't wait to see the changes you will make to not only my world but the whole world!!! I can wait to see what you say you want to be when you grow up too!!
Alexis, you are sooo sweet just like your brother, in the morning I say good morning to all of you and you are ALWAYS the first to smile at me. Your beautiful face warms my soul and I can't get enough of your sweet cheeks!! You and I have had the longest talks and you try sooooo hard for me to understand what you are saying, I pretend to and you light up. You like your Brothers have BEAUTIFUL Blue eyes but yours are different I think yours are going to turn Green the fastest. You are so sweet and kind already and I can't wait to see you grow up because you already amaze me and you remind me so much of Allison. I know you will do wonders to this world, I can see you doing something to help others because you are a very compassionate baby already... We will just have to see and I look forward to watching your life unfold!!
Dawson, you are just like Brandon and Alexis, seriously I think you all are the sweetest most caring babies ever!! Your smile is sooo cute!! You make Mommy work for it but when you do smile your whole face lights up and you sometimes don't know how to handle it. You try to be shy and hid your face but you keep your eyes on me when you try. I have anyways melted in your eyes since the moment you were born and even it the NICU I would tell Daddy when we had to go home, Dawson's eyes looking up at me makes it soooo hard to leave. You see Alexis and Brandon always fell asleep before we left but you my little man liked to talk to me and when we left to go home it was sooooo hard to go. Dawson you are growing up so fast already and I love every minute of watching it happen. You are such a fighter and I can see you doing something powerful, or running your own business. Life win you all is so much fun!
Things I think you all need to know:
No matter how hard the obstacle is I front of you, keep going because you can do ANYTHING if you put your mind to it!!
God does hear our prayers, he doesn't always answer them when we want but he does hear them. He has a bigger plan for us so when we as humans are impatient he sometimes makes us wait to fully appreciate things.
Don't ever let anyone tell you or make you feel you’re not good enough. The only way they would tell you that is because they know you can and you are better than them which makes them feel less of a person because of it.
Sometimes in life things happen that we have no control over. We can try to reason with God and pray that he changes the outcome but again it's God has a bigger plan for us. If something like this ever happens PLEASE BABIES!!, DON'T EVER TURN YOUR EYES OFF GOD! Don't get mad at him, he didn't make the situation happen, he doesn't like to see you sad or cry. Take whatever lesson it is and learn from it, grow from it because one day someone is going to need you to help the, through the same situation.
True love does exist, not all people as lucky to find their soul mates but if you do, hold on to them!! Soul mates can be a friend, a family member or the person you are meant to spend your life with.
When you get older you might not like the way Mommy or Daddy want you to act, we might punish you for acting a certain way and you will probably tell us that you think we are unfair, that you hate us, or do something like slam doors... Know we are just doing what is best for you, that we have very high expectations for your life and the even if you hate us at the time, know we love you more than you could ever imagine and we aren't mad at your emotions. We all have been there before and someday we will all laugh at what happened.
Girls, when it comes time to date people... If Daddy ever let's you :) Know that I expect allot from you in your choices. Do not date a man that is beneath you, a man who doesn't respect you or treat you like gold. You are the most BEAUTIFUL girls I have EVER seen and trust me when I say this, there isn't a man out there who is worth your tears!! When you choose someone, make him be someone who makes you laugh, tells you your Beautiful comes from a good family, RESPECTS YOU, and never puts you down, someone whom you trust. If he honks the horn for you to come out and can't come to the door to get you, TRUST ME ladies, he can beep the horn till his car stalls but he will come to the door for you. He should open the doors to places for you, silvery is not dead and you are worth the BEST!! The man you two choose to marry will be loving, kind, he will make you feel amazing, he will make you laugh, he will be kind to the whole family and he will seem to fit in like a glove, he will be a good Christian man and he will know never to hurt you!! Never settle for a man because you are lonely, God is giving you that time to discover who you are and to make you find a place in your heart for him. You will and need to love God so much that he man you marry will have to seek out God to find your heart!
Boys, my expectations for you are the same! Do now ever allow a woman to make you feel less of a man. The woman you choose to date or marry will have a high pedestal to achieve. She must love you for you and NEVER try to change you. She must be kind at heart but tough to protect her Babies. She must be kind to our family, love your brothers and sisters and must respect your Father and I. My house is filled with love; if she ever disrespects you in my house (ladies pay attention) know that it will be very hard for me to welcome them back. There are women out there who will use you, who have only one thing in mind... Again Alli and Lexie pay attention... YOU ARE BETTER THAN THESE PEOPLE!! DO NOT SETTLE EVER!! Know that there is someone out there with your name on their heart and you WILL find them if you love yourself and God enough to wait for them. Life will throw you weeds, trust me I've been there also t you have to go through the weeds to find your Rose, and when you find that person you will understand everything. Life will make sense why you had to go through what you did to get where you will be.
Allison, Brandon, Alexis and Dawson,
Life is not going to be easy, There are really good people and there are some really bad people out there. Love yourself enough to surround yourself with good people. If you find that your friends make you feel bad, don't like who you are and want you to be something or do something that you don't feel is right...GET RID OF THEM!! Friends will come and go, and should NEVER make you do something that if Daddy and I saw you doing that you would be ashamed of yourself for! ALWAYS KEEP YOUR EYES ON GOD, he is watching your every move so the same goes for him, doesn’t ever do something that would upset God to see.
People make mistakes and the object of life is to learn from our mistakes, and grow from them. If you do not learn how you went wrong you will continue to make the same mistakes in life. We are here on earth for one main purpose and that is to prove to God in our actions in life bar we are worthy of his kingdom. If you ever have a Goal in life make this you’re greatest to try to achieve. Make your Father in heaven so proud of you that when you are old and have accomplished everything God set you out to do, that he is SOO PROUD OF YOU that all of Heaven celebrates your homecoming!!
My sweet children, there is nothing you could EVER do that would make me not love you!! I will ALWAYS be here for you in any way you need me and know I will do my best to protect you from harm your whole life. I love you more than words will ever describe.
What I want most for you all is to know that I AM PROUD TO BE YOUR MOTHER!! You have made all my dreams come true, you are and always will be my greatest accomplishment, and when I die the first people I will thank God for is YOU!!
Love you always and forever!! To the moon and back!!,
Mommy
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Life outside the Home
Life outside the home:
Getting out of the house you have to start at least 2 hours ahead of time getting everything ready.
1. You need to get yourself ready 1/2 hour to an hour if taking a shower.
2. Get Allison Dressed, teeth brushed, potty.
3. All three Babies, Changed, Clothes changed and passies to comfort them after the kayos of the moment.
4. Three bottles, Formula, Diapers, and change of clothes in Bag to go
5. All three into car seats, Allison in her coat, us in coats
6. Dog out
7. Final Bag check, Phone check, Lights in the house on or off, one last Baby check to make sure passies are in their seats and time to load the car.
8. Alexis and Allison into the Back of the Van. Then Brandon and Dawson into the bucket seats.
9. Get my Coat on, shoes on, One last mirror check to make sure I don't have Baby puke on me, grab my Bag and out the door.
Sounds Easy... Not really. But we do it because we would lose our minds if we didn't get out somehow.
Managing Triplets and a toddler in a store.
1. Try to get a close spot to the door
2. One parent takes Allison and one baby and walks into the store
3. Other Parent takes two babies and heads into the store.
4. You'll need two carts. One Baby on the top of the cart and the other sideways inside the cart. Allison either inside the cart or riding on the front of the empty cart with a Baby in the basket part of the cart.
Shopping must be planned out. It is not a lolly gagging event; it is a Get in, get your stuff and Get out experience... But it never works out that way unless someone stays in the car with two or all three babies.
Be prepared you WILL be stopped a MILLION times, People will first say "TRIPLETS?!?!?!?!" and when we answer "Yes!" they always ask me "You had those babies?!?!, You don't look like someone who had triplets??" Which I always answer "Thank you, I'm trying" :) Then to follow "BOY YOU HAVE YOUR HANDS FULL!!" Which one of us reply “Yeah we do but it’s better than the ladder, not having our hands full at all"
They will stop and look at them, Tell us they are BEAUFIFUL and then talk to Allison asking her what her name is, how she likes the Babies, How old she is, and always say " I bet your a BIG help to your Mommy and Daddy??" Which we reply "Yes she is!!)
Then they ask "I sure hope you have help??""Do you have family who lives close by??,They ask If we knew this was going to happen, do we have multiples in our family, do we get any sleep, "Two boys and Two girls, the perfect family.." Ask if we want more which I am responding now "I am not sure, right now I want more, I don't feel done yet but I could change my mind some day, but for now No we aren't done" Most of the conversations don't last long but always end with "Good luck. You have such a BEAUTIFUL family. You are soooo blessed. I will pray for you, or CONGRATULATIONS!!! This could last a few minutes to a bit longer depending on how long the people will linger, but makes for time we can’t get stuff done in the stores, mall, restaurant.... So again going out in Public is usually complicated to say the least. :)
For the most part, life as a Mommy of 4 is AMAZING, REWARDING AND I WOULDN'T CHANGE ONE MINUTE OF IT FOR THE WORLD!!!
Getting out of the house you have to start at least 2 hours ahead of time getting everything ready.
1. You need to get yourself ready 1/2 hour to an hour if taking a shower.
2. Get Allison Dressed, teeth brushed, potty.
3. All three Babies, Changed, Clothes changed and passies to comfort them after the kayos of the moment.
4. Three bottles, Formula, Diapers, and change of clothes in Bag to go
5. All three into car seats, Allison in her coat, us in coats
6. Dog out
7. Final Bag check, Phone check, Lights in the house on or off, one last Baby check to make sure passies are in their seats and time to load the car.
8. Alexis and Allison into the Back of the Van. Then Brandon and Dawson into the bucket seats.
9. Get my Coat on, shoes on, One last mirror check to make sure I don't have Baby puke on me, grab my Bag and out the door.
Sounds Easy... Not really. But we do it because we would lose our minds if we didn't get out somehow.
Managing Triplets and a toddler in a store.
1. Try to get a close spot to the door
2. One parent takes Allison and one baby and walks into the store
3. Other Parent takes two babies and heads into the store.
4. You'll need two carts. One Baby on the top of the cart and the other sideways inside the cart. Allison either inside the cart or riding on the front of the empty cart with a Baby in the basket part of the cart.
Shopping must be planned out. It is not a lolly gagging event; it is a Get in, get your stuff and Get out experience... But it never works out that way unless someone stays in the car with two or all three babies.
Be prepared you WILL be stopped a MILLION times, People will first say "TRIPLETS?!?!?!?!" and when we answer "Yes!" they always ask me "You had those babies?!?!, You don't look like someone who had triplets??" Which I always answer "Thank you, I'm trying" :) Then to follow "BOY YOU HAVE YOUR HANDS FULL!!" Which one of us reply “Yeah we do but it’s better than the ladder, not having our hands full at all"
They will stop and look at them, Tell us they are BEAUFIFUL and then talk to Allison asking her what her name is, how she likes the Babies, How old she is, and always say " I bet your a BIG help to your Mommy and Daddy??" Which we reply "Yes she is!!)
Then they ask "I sure hope you have help??""Do you have family who lives close by??,They ask If we knew this was going to happen, do we have multiples in our family, do we get any sleep, "Two boys and Two girls, the perfect family.." Ask if we want more which I am responding now "I am not sure, right now I want more, I don't feel done yet but I could change my mind some day, but for now No we aren't done" Most of the conversations don't last long but always end with "Good luck. You have such a BEAUTIFUL family. You are soooo blessed. I will pray for you, or CONGRATULATIONS!!! This could last a few minutes to a bit longer depending on how long the people will linger, but makes for time we can’t get stuff done in the stores, mall, restaurant.... So again going out in Public is usually complicated to say the least. :)
For the most part, life as a Mommy of 4 is AMAZING, REWARDING AND I WOULDN'T CHANGE ONE MINUTE OF IT FOR THE WORLD!!!
About the Kids
Life with the Babies is AMAZING!! Challenging but AMAZING!! They all have their own personalities, they all are BEAUTIFUL and they all stole my heart from the moment I saw them!!! Being a Mother is my GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT!! I remember the Day Allison was born feeling "I finally did something ABSOLUTELY PERFECT!! Not a FLAW to her!! PERFECT!!" And when the Babies were born I heard their Cries and saw their faces and again the same feeling came over me "PERFECTION!!!"
Allison: My first born, the answer to my prayers!! She is absolutely a BLESSING in our lives. I was willing to do whatever it took to have her, and God showed us the way. It wasn't hard, it was his timing and I'd do it over a MILLION TIMES to have my little girl again!!! Allions is sooooo LOVING and we tell each other we love each other a MILLION times a day. She will walk up to me and hug me and say "Mommy, I love you sooo much" not prompted just on her own and I melt!! She will NEVER STOP MAKING ME PROUD OF HER!! Allison LOVES the Babies and wants to help as much as we will let her. She plays Mommy with her Dolls, Changing Diapers, feeding them their Bottles, Singing songs and making sure they take their naps when they need them. :) She is a Girly Girl, Loves princess stuff, Dressing up, My Makeup, painting her nails, cooking, cleaning and relaxing in the Tub with Bubbles or to a movie with popcorn. She is VERY talented in the sports area. You name it she will pick it up the first time you teach her, She self taught herself Gymnastics and can’t wait to go to Dance in the fall. She can dance and sing on rhythm and CRACKS ME UP all the time!!!She has an AMAZING imagination and keeps us busy with games and conversation. She is a Mommy’s Girl and at the same time stole Daddy’s heart!! She has GREAT manners, Please and thank you's, asks to be excused from the table, prays before she eats... and makes me sooo PROUD to be her Mother. I couldn't ask for a Better little girl!! Parents always say, she got this from me, or that from her Father, I ask her " Alli how did you get so beautiful?" and her response every time is "God!" :) That's my little girl!!! My smart, amazingly beautiful, took my breath away with her first breath, MY LITTLE GIRL!!!
Brandon: My Second Born, My First Son is the easiest of the Triplets...He is laid back, calm, and the lightest in fetures of all three of them. My HANDSOME little Irish boy!! His face is like an angle, soft, sweet and full of love!! He likes to talk through his passie, he will stair at you and almost tell you how he feels through his eyes. His smile says sooo much to me and I can't get enough of it. I could talk to him for hours to have him smile at me. He never gets upset when the others cry but if they are really upset he will cry with them until we comfort the other one. He is my First Born of the three and the first to capture my heart with from the moment I saw his beautiful face. He loves to cuddle and snuggle up to my heart. He will wiggle until he is right against my heart and then out he goes. He loves his tub time and loves the feeling of the water on his head and face. As soon as you go to rinse his hair he coos and closes his eyes. :) He has the loudest cry of them all but I think being so calm he feels he has to be loud to be heard, although I wish he would bring it down a few notches I still love the fact that he is his own self and that's just fine with me. Brandon will always be one who will be loving, sweet natured and patient, and for a Baby to have patience at three months SPEAKS VOLUMES to me. What an amazing little boy I have!!!
Alexis: My Third Born, Second Daughter. She is in between both Babies, She is SOOO SWEET!! She smiles and melts my heart; she loves to talk and loves listening to people talk to her. She is soooo compassionate and when one of the Boys is crying she tries to comfort them by reaching out her hand to hold theirs or to offer comfort. She has beautiful Curls on her head like her sister and has my heart like the others. She was the sickest when she was born and is the strongest now. When she was in the NICU, all I could do was Pray to God to help her, I was sooo in love with my children and I couldn't even think of losing her. She was soooo tiny and yet she was a fighter. I held her and I could see in her eyes she knew who I was... And I was head over heels in love. We talked and she promised she would fight and low and behold my little Princess became Rocky and was one of the first to come home. I will forever be proud of her for that!! Coming sooooo far right away!! Lexie wants to be held often but when you have three it’s hard to hold them like you want to so we do our best to suit everyone's needs. Alexis is the happiest baby I've ever seen, she has her moments of anger and frustration but if you talk calm to her she quiets down and looks at you like she understands and 9 out of 10 she will laugh at herself. Lexie looks allot like Alli did and I feel sooooo blessed to have two of the most amazing Angles be MY LITTLE GIRLS!! All I can say is WOW!! These are my Babies!!! :D
Dawson: The Forth Born, the Baby... His the sweetest natured baby like the other two. He has EXICELENT eye contact and you could melt into his eyes when he looks at you. He loves to cuddle, and be held, he talks to you when he is spoken to and loves to be close to his brother and sisters. He is silly too, dances to music when played, try's to eat his brother or sisters closest feature, a shoulder, hand, ear.. He cracks me up when he does that to them. When Allison comes close he follows her with his eyes and reaches for her to come closer. His smile is a million dollar smile; He gets dimples and is sooo proud of himself when he does it. He too loves tub time and wants to soak as long as I will let him. He loves to have books read to him and follows the pages as they get turned. Right now his favorite book I have read to him is “the Cat in the Hat" SMILES from Ear to Ear when he sees the cat!! He is going to be my Book reader like Alli!! Dawson had to have surgery on January 26 and spent the night in the NICU, my prayers were answered when my little man came out of surgery a perfect trouper!!! He has returned to his sweet, calm self like in the NICU and I couldn't be happier for him that he is no longer in pain.
I guess it’s safe to say I am Head over Heels in love with my children!! Each and every one of them has blessed me beyond measure and I cannot begin to THANK GOD or them enough for making my dreams come true. It’s safe to say I will ALWAYS BE THEIR BIGGEST FAN IN LIFE!! I will ALWAYS be there for them in ANY situation and if I had to I'd lay down my life for them, all of them!!
Allison: My first born, the answer to my prayers!! She is absolutely a BLESSING in our lives. I was willing to do whatever it took to have her, and God showed us the way. It wasn't hard, it was his timing and I'd do it over a MILLION TIMES to have my little girl again!!! Allions is sooooo LOVING and we tell each other we love each other a MILLION times a day. She will walk up to me and hug me and say "Mommy, I love you sooo much" not prompted just on her own and I melt!! She will NEVER STOP MAKING ME PROUD OF HER!! Allison LOVES the Babies and wants to help as much as we will let her. She plays Mommy with her Dolls, Changing Diapers, feeding them their Bottles, Singing songs and making sure they take their naps when they need them. :) She is a Girly Girl, Loves princess stuff, Dressing up, My Makeup, painting her nails, cooking, cleaning and relaxing in the Tub with Bubbles or to a movie with popcorn. She is VERY talented in the sports area. You name it she will pick it up the first time you teach her, She self taught herself Gymnastics and can’t wait to go to Dance in the fall. She can dance and sing on rhythm and CRACKS ME UP all the time!!!She has an AMAZING imagination and keeps us busy with games and conversation. She is a Mommy’s Girl and at the same time stole Daddy’s heart!! She has GREAT manners, Please and thank you's, asks to be excused from the table, prays before she eats... and makes me sooo PROUD to be her Mother. I couldn't ask for a Better little girl!! Parents always say, she got this from me, or that from her Father, I ask her " Alli how did you get so beautiful?" and her response every time is "God!" :) That's my little girl!!! My smart, amazingly beautiful, took my breath away with her first breath, MY LITTLE GIRL!!!
Brandon: My Second Born, My First Son is the easiest of the Triplets...He is laid back, calm, and the lightest in fetures of all three of them. My HANDSOME little Irish boy!! His face is like an angle, soft, sweet and full of love!! He likes to talk through his passie, he will stair at you and almost tell you how he feels through his eyes. His smile says sooo much to me and I can't get enough of it. I could talk to him for hours to have him smile at me. He never gets upset when the others cry but if they are really upset he will cry with them until we comfort the other one. He is my First Born of the three and the first to capture my heart with from the moment I saw his beautiful face. He loves to cuddle and snuggle up to my heart. He will wiggle until he is right against my heart and then out he goes. He loves his tub time and loves the feeling of the water on his head and face. As soon as you go to rinse his hair he coos and closes his eyes. :) He has the loudest cry of them all but I think being so calm he feels he has to be loud to be heard, although I wish he would bring it down a few notches I still love the fact that he is his own self and that's just fine with me. Brandon will always be one who will be loving, sweet natured and patient, and for a Baby to have patience at three months SPEAKS VOLUMES to me. What an amazing little boy I have!!!
Alexis: My Third Born, Second Daughter. She is in between both Babies, She is SOOO SWEET!! She smiles and melts my heart; she loves to talk and loves listening to people talk to her. She is soooo compassionate and when one of the Boys is crying she tries to comfort them by reaching out her hand to hold theirs or to offer comfort. She has beautiful Curls on her head like her sister and has my heart like the others. She was the sickest when she was born and is the strongest now. When she was in the NICU, all I could do was Pray to God to help her, I was sooo in love with my children and I couldn't even think of losing her. She was soooo tiny and yet she was a fighter. I held her and I could see in her eyes she knew who I was... And I was head over heels in love. We talked and she promised she would fight and low and behold my little Princess became Rocky and was one of the first to come home. I will forever be proud of her for that!! Coming sooooo far right away!! Lexie wants to be held often but when you have three it’s hard to hold them like you want to so we do our best to suit everyone's needs. Alexis is the happiest baby I've ever seen, she has her moments of anger and frustration but if you talk calm to her she quiets down and looks at you like she understands and 9 out of 10 she will laugh at herself. Lexie looks allot like Alli did and I feel sooooo blessed to have two of the most amazing Angles be MY LITTLE GIRLS!! All I can say is WOW!! These are my Babies!!! :D
Dawson: The Forth Born, the Baby... His the sweetest natured baby like the other two. He has EXICELENT eye contact and you could melt into his eyes when he looks at you. He loves to cuddle, and be held, he talks to you when he is spoken to and loves to be close to his brother and sisters. He is silly too, dances to music when played, try's to eat his brother or sisters closest feature, a shoulder, hand, ear.. He cracks me up when he does that to them. When Allison comes close he follows her with his eyes and reaches for her to come closer. His smile is a million dollar smile; He gets dimples and is sooo proud of himself when he does it. He too loves tub time and wants to soak as long as I will let him. He loves to have books read to him and follows the pages as they get turned. Right now his favorite book I have read to him is “the Cat in the Hat" SMILES from Ear to Ear when he sees the cat!! He is going to be my Book reader like Alli!! Dawson had to have surgery on January 26 and spent the night in the NICU, my prayers were answered when my little man came out of surgery a perfect trouper!!! He has returned to his sweet, calm self like in the NICU and I couldn't be happier for him that he is no longer in pain.
I guess it’s safe to say I am Head over Heels in love with my children!! Each and every one of them has blessed me beyond measure and I cannot begin to THANK GOD or them enough for making my dreams come true. It’s safe to say I will ALWAYS BE THEIR BIGGEST FAN IN LIFE!! I will ALWAYS be there for them in ANY situation and if I had to I'd lay down my life for them, all of them!!
What I've learned about being a mother to Multiples
Ok so our last blog updated people where were came from, so I thought I would update you all to where we are now.
Life at the Hospital and since then is seriously flying. Every day goes by sooo fast and before we know it the sun is setting and we are getting everyone ready for bed. Eric is back to work now and the thought of him leaving us was at one point unbearable to even think if but, now that I've had a week with him gone, things arent as hard as I thought they would be. I have my BF Abby and My Mom helping out and they are a God send, not to mention that I am soaking up my girl time with them!!
Days are typically the same unless we try to venture out in the public which is a chore in it self.. I will get to that in a minute.
Days as Multiple parents: Babies eat every 4-5 hours.. Sometimes a little more sometimes a little less. Dipers get changed and they typically go back to sleep. Sometimes it takes 30minutes but most times its about an hour at a time. Babies eat 6-8 ounces a feeding... A can a day in formula. Dipers can be one change but,our Babies like to poop in a clean Diaper so sometimes that is two diapers in on feeding..per Baby. Babies learned self soothing in the NICU so we are able to lay them down and they just sit there, smile sometimes or put them selves back to sleep... Or we hold them a little longer and fall asleep together... :)
Babies are still in our room in their incline seats. (Fisher Price Rock and sleep's. Next Blog will be the Must haves for Babies as well as Multiples and This is one of the Must haves... More details to come) Reason Babies are still in our room 1. They are only three months on the 12 2. I am just not ready to let them go to their own room yet. I feel comfortable having them beside me, I can hear their Every move and I am able to comfort them immediately when needed so Maybe by 4 Months I will talk about moving them over.. Or maybe sooner it just depends on allot of stuff.
Typical day with out Eric home: I get up around 7, take my shower,brush my teeth, do my hair and check on the Babies, if they are still sleeping I get back in bed and either read the news or fall back asleep.
By 7:30-8 the babies start fussing and I try to hold them off till 9 but it doesn't always work. I get up prop bottles and hit their timers. After feeding Allison is usually up, I ask her to go potty and brush her teeth. During that time I will change all babies and get ready to go downstairs.
Babies get put on their boppy loungers and in the kitchen with me so I can make breakfast for Alli. After eating and cleanup it is usually when someone is coming over to help which is usually between 9:30 and 11 depending on wake up time.
At 12:00 everyone eats again, babies and Alli and guests. I make bottles and lunch for everyone, we eat and babies get changes and at 12:30/1 babies are down for a nap.
Kids play time and clean up the house time. I also start e prep for dinner.
Between 3:30/4 the Babies wake up we change them and try to hold off feeding but mostly make it to 4:30 at the latest. By this time Eric should be home, sometimes this works out that he can help with this feeding but that all depends on how the babies were through the day.
After feeding, I wash bottles, finish dinner, we set the table and dinner is down by 5:30 at the latest.
Babies will stay up the longest till bed time. Every other night is bath night and that is like an assembly line. Tub, towel, diaper, PJ's.
Allison gets to play till 8:30, she then has a snack and gets to watch one show before bedtime at 9:00/9:30 which is then: potty, brush your teeth, wash your face. We read a book, cuddle and then bed time.
Back downstairs to get the babies and bring them up to bed. I make the bottles for the night, make sure we have passies, blankets, and timers for all babies, let the dog out for the final time for the night and up to bed.
I might be able to close my eyes by 11:30.. On a good day 10:30. And then the day starts all over again at 4:30am. Feed, change and back to sleep till 7:30/8am trying to hold them off till 9.
Somedays feels like Ground Hog day and others like today feel like we took a mile and not just a step. The Babies all went down for a nap, awake in their Beds and put themselves to sleep on their own. Sleeping for almost 3 hours... Today was a good day!! A step in the right direction!!!!!
I will never ask God why me, I will never not be GREATFUL to God for this experience, because although hard for people to understand... The ONLY THING I EVER WANTED IN LIFE, more than my own life was to be a Mother!! I AM LIVING MY DREAM!! God loved me enough to answer my prayers, not very many people can honestly say that, and I CAN, why wouldn't I wake up everyday looking into my 4 amazingly beautiful children's eyes and THANK GOD!! I get to Thank God everyday for the rest of my life for loving ME!!
And for that I AM FOREVER GREATFUL!! FOREVER HUMBLED by the love and support we have received, forever THANKFUL for MY LIFE so I could have given the gift of life to others..... FOREVER GREATFUL!!!
Life at the Hospital and since then is seriously flying. Every day goes by sooo fast and before we know it the sun is setting and we are getting everyone ready for bed. Eric is back to work now and the thought of him leaving us was at one point unbearable to even think if but, now that I've had a week with him gone, things arent as hard as I thought they would be. I have my BF Abby and My Mom helping out and they are a God send, not to mention that I am soaking up my girl time with them!!
Days are typically the same unless we try to venture out in the public which is a chore in it self.. I will get to that in a minute.
Days as Multiple parents: Babies eat every 4-5 hours.. Sometimes a little more sometimes a little less. Dipers get changed and they typically go back to sleep. Sometimes it takes 30minutes but most times its about an hour at a time. Babies eat 6-8 ounces a feeding... A can a day in formula. Dipers can be one change but,our Babies like to poop in a clean Diaper so sometimes that is two diapers in on feeding..per Baby. Babies learned self soothing in the NICU so we are able to lay them down and they just sit there, smile sometimes or put them selves back to sleep... Or we hold them a little longer and fall asleep together... :)
Babies are still in our room in their incline seats. (Fisher Price Rock and sleep's. Next Blog will be the Must haves for Babies as well as Multiples and This is one of the Must haves... More details to come) Reason Babies are still in our room 1. They are only three months on the 12 2. I am just not ready to let them go to their own room yet. I feel comfortable having them beside me, I can hear their Every move and I am able to comfort them immediately when needed so Maybe by 4 Months I will talk about moving them over.. Or maybe sooner it just depends on allot of stuff.
Typical day with out Eric home: I get up around 7, take my shower,brush my teeth, do my hair and check on the Babies, if they are still sleeping I get back in bed and either read the news or fall back asleep.
By 7:30-8 the babies start fussing and I try to hold them off till 9 but it doesn't always work. I get up prop bottles and hit their timers. After feeding Allison is usually up, I ask her to go potty and brush her teeth. During that time I will change all babies and get ready to go downstairs.
Babies get put on their boppy loungers and in the kitchen with me so I can make breakfast for Alli. After eating and cleanup it is usually when someone is coming over to help which is usually between 9:30 and 11 depending on wake up time.
At 12:00 everyone eats again, babies and Alli and guests. I make bottles and lunch for everyone, we eat and babies get changes and at 12:30/1 babies are down for a nap.
Kids play time and clean up the house time. I also start e prep for dinner.
Between 3:30/4 the Babies wake up we change them and try to hold off feeding but mostly make it to 4:30 at the latest. By this time Eric should be home, sometimes this works out that he can help with this feeding but that all depends on how the babies were through the day.
After feeding, I wash bottles, finish dinner, we set the table and dinner is down by 5:30 at the latest.
Babies will stay up the longest till bed time. Every other night is bath night and that is like an assembly line. Tub, towel, diaper, PJ's.
Allison gets to play till 8:30, she then has a snack and gets to watch one show before bedtime at 9:00/9:30 which is then: potty, brush your teeth, wash your face. We read a book, cuddle and then bed time.
Back downstairs to get the babies and bring them up to bed. I make the bottles for the night, make sure we have passies, blankets, and timers for all babies, let the dog out for the final time for the night and up to bed.
I might be able to close my eyes by 11:30.. On a good day 10:30. And then the day starts all over again at 4:30am. Feed, change and back to sleep till 7:30/8am trying to hold them off till 9.
Somedays feels like Ground Hog day and others like today feel like we took a mile and not just a step. The Babies all went down for a nap, awake in their Beds and put themselves to sleep on their own. Sleeping for almost 3 hours... Today was a good day!! A step in the right direction!!!!!
I will never ask God why me, I will never not be GREATFUL to God for this experience, because although hard for people to understand... The ONLY THING I EVER WANTED IN LIFE, more than my own life was to be a Mother!! I AM LIVING MY DREAM!! God loved me enough to answer my prayers, not very many people can honestly say that, and I CAN, why wouldn't I wake up everyday looking into my 4 amazingly beautiful children's eyes and THANK GOD!! I get to Thank God everyday for the rest of my life for loving ME!!
And for that I AM FOREVER GREATFUL!! FOREVER HUMBLED by the love and support we have received, forever THANKFUL for MY LIFE so I could have given the gift of life to others..... FOREVER GREATFUL!!!
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
My Testimony
TodayI was inspired to write and update the blog. I've wanted to write for a long time but couldn't find the time. So today I asked Eric to watch the kids and let me blog. I think, in order to first understand where we are in life you must first understand where we came from.
I was 25 when I met the Man of my Dreams. I knew from the first kiss he was the one for me! The Dreams and aspirations I had for our life ahead of us was often hard at times to have the patience with God to wait for each and every one of those dreams to come true. I can look at our wedding Photos and feel the love we had for each other that day, I can see in my eyes the excitement for our future! With a simple word "I do" I felt free to run with our dreams, to let go and let God take the wheel...
But sometimes things happen that are out of our control, sometime God hands us challenges to make us stronger within, and as a couple, so that one day when he does answer your prayers, your heart is ready for them.
Eric and I struggled to have a baby... for a year and seven months Eric and I prayed that God would bless our home with a baby. Test after test with the Doctors and EVERY test came back fine "There was nothing wrong with us" yet my heart couldn't accept the fact that we weren't getting pregnant. I wanted to know the answers and I began to think there was a problem that they are missing and "Once Satan tells you, " you have a problem" is when Satan tells you "you are the only one with that problem"~Mark Hall
No one talks about having problems getting pregnant, or miscarriages... Until you struggle with it yourself... Then and only then do people start talking. You wonder why no one ever says anything, why they don’t tell you how hard it can be at times or how heart braking it is too loose a baby....I am and will be the first to speak up to someone when they struggle getting pregnant and say "you are not along, I walked in your shoes and I am a living testament of Faith in God that HE CAN AND HE WILL if you just let him!!" I know it is not easy for everyone, I have been there!! I know that for some people there isn’t a medicine out there that will give them what we have been blessed with but I will say "If there is a will there is a way!!!"
I remember MANY times in my life being faced with challenging things that I NEVER thought I would over come... I thought many times "God what is the deal, The only thing I wanted MOST in life was to be a Mother, I wanted it more than Life itself and yet I just couldn't have it. There was "Nothing wrong with us" then WHY GOD!!” I fell to my knees many times, praying for God to just hear me... "Wasn't I worthy of this gift you give to people all the time Wasn't I as good as the other people out there that you bless Children with, I had so many challenges in my life and I couldn't understand them, but I took them and I excepted them.. But God this one I just can’t swallow, this one I am going to fight you for!!!"
Sometimes in life we pray for things that we REALLY want, We think if God could just give us this one thing "I will never ask for another thing in my life" (and through life we will pray that a million times, and God will laugh every time) And at some point God will actually see that you are ready for the gift you REALLY want. It’s like being a Child and really wanting something and your parents knows you are not "old enough" to have, and one say out of the blue we miraculously are. Like the day your parents take you for your first bike, first time they let you drive a car... God works the same way. It’s not that he can’t hear you; he just knows what is best for us and when we really need it.
Many times in life are we handed things that we don't think we are "good enough" for and we don't except Gods belief in us that we are GOOD ENOUGH!! We turn our selves away from his blessings and open our eyes to all the negative things that surround that blessing because we don't feel "worthy" of his love, the power of his love.
I remember the day that I realized Gods plan for our lives, I was talking to a Doctor and he wanted me to take another Medication and I was SOOO tired of all the meds that I wanted to take the next step. Nothing was working, yet they said NOTHING was wrong!! So WHY then... I said to the Doctor, "No More Meds lets go the next step, and he said Ok" That month I took shots to ovulate and we did an IUI.(Not to be confused with IVF where they take eggs and fertilize them and then implant them) What we did was I ovulated eggs and they insert the Eric’s sperm right into the uterus...But the first time we did that the night before the procedure the Doctor called me and said I had ovulated 32 eggs and 12 were viable.. (Yes I could have gotten pregnant with 12 babies that time.) The Doctor told me I shouldn't go forward unless I was willing to do "selective reduction" if I got pregnant with all 12. Selective reduction is like an abortion and I was not ok with that at all.
My heart sank, I thought, “why was God pushing me sooo hard to go forward and now that I am here he is taking this from me??” I in that moment felt peace and heard "TRUST ME, I WILL NOT HARM YOU" and I said to the Doctor, "Every bone in my body is telling me to go forward with this, if I get pregnant with multiples I will handle it!! I have Faith in God that we will be ok so yes let’s go forward" Only 5% get pregnant on the first try and that is how Allison came to us.
After that I was so in love with Allison that I said to God, if she is the only Baby that you bless my heart with then I am BEYOND GREATFUL to you. We stopped trying and enjoyed our lives together. Our BEAUTIFUL family of Three.
A year and a half later I was not feeling well; I was trying to lose a little weight for our friends wedding. I wanted to look good in this dress I had and I only had 5lbs to lose but for some reason I COULDN'T lose the weight. I told Eric I was going to take a pregnancy test, I said "I know I am not pregnant but I will just see" Going into the bathroom I was 100% prepared to see the negative I had seen a MILLION times... Then the positive showed up and I almost passed out. Eric was upstairs and I yelled for him... "OMG ERIC!! OMG I CANT BELIEVE IT!!! OMG HONEY WE'RE PREGNANT!!!" He came running down the stairs, and looked at the pregnancy stick and I fell to my knees crying and thanking God!! I couldn't believe it we did it on our own and God blessed our home again. I held Allison and we were sooooo happy!! We called our parents, told our friends WE WERE SOOO HAPPY.
We went to our first appointment and the Baby was fine but they thought I was pregnant with twins and something was wrong with one of the twins so to come back the next week and do another ultrasound...
Our Happiness was short lived and began a downward spiral of heart break. 9 weeks of heartbreak to be exact!! Something was wrong with our Baby, but his/her heart was beating… My glimmer of hope that things will be ok...My Glimmer of hope that HAUNTED me for months to pass... but this time there was no prayers, no medicines that could help us.. I remember the day like it was yesterday when my Dad pulled up and got out of the car... My Dad is a strong Man; I have only seen him cry a few times in my life. We are very close but he is a Dad and always had to be the strong one... That day my Dad got out of the car, and I ran to him like a child running to her Dad when he gets home, and he held me and we both cried...On August 4, 2010 we miscarried our baby. To this day it is still painful but I am SOOOOOO BLESSED to have had those 9weeks with that Baby!! I learned ALLOT about life, love and appreciation for the BLESSINGS God has given us in life. That Baby brought Eric and I so much closer, I learned to Love even more that day and I trusted in God that one day we will be blessed again..
9months later I still hadn't started and I had lost my patience, I wanted to move on with my life, I wanted a Baby so bad again to replace the hole in my heart that was created from the loss... But I didn't want to do what we had to do to have Alli. I wanted it to happen naturally because it was really trying on my body. I wasn't willing to do that to Allison so I trusted in the Doctors again. I remember the day the Doctors offered me to take a round of clomid to get me to ovulate. I jumped on that like a heartbeat. I was READY TO MOVE ON!!
Again I didn't think we would get pregnant because I had taken 6 rounds of clomid in the past and it hadn't worked. So I took the meds, saw I ovulated and that is the month the Triplets blessed our home. I remember Eric and I went to the store to get the test, again being prepared that we weren't pregnant, that the overwhelming fear of loss and rejection came over me but I took the test... I patiently watched the stick, tick...tick... tick....PREGNANT!!!
"OH GOD, SERIOUSLY!! IS THIS TRUE!!!" Eric was in the other room and I walked out of the bathroom crying, he looked at me and frowned and said "Its ok Baby, we will try again next month" I was so happy I couldn't see through my tears and kept shaking my head and handed him the test. His eyes filled with tears and said "NO WAY, SERIOUSLY?!?!?!? OMG SERIOUSLY!!" And we both hugged for what felt like a lifetime, felt like we hadn't seen each other for months and in that moment… our Hearts healed from the loss. We were sooooo EXCITED but that fear it would happen again kept us from telling everyone. We told our Family and two of our Best Friends and asked for prayers.
Every day till my Doctors appointment was like a lifetime. I was cramping and I was prepared for another loss. When we showed up for the appointment my Heart was ready to see the loss but to our surprise the Baby was ok, I was soooo overjoyed I started to cry... Then she saw the second Baby and I laughed and cried in happiness... And then she saw another Baby and I couldn't believe it... We were pregnant with TRIPLETS!!! "Is this really happening to us, OMG WE ARE HAVING TRIPLETS!!? We lost one and area now blessed with three!!"
For Months I felt I was just walking the motions of the pregnancy, I was afraid of another loss, We were faced with a Doctor who wasn't the most positive man alive and he tried to convince me to get rid of one of the Babies which didn't create a good conversation between us... needless to say I moved on to Dr.Zinotti who was a GOD SEND!!
I prayed for strength, something that would help me understand why us and we heard a saying very much like this "If I wanted somebody else I would have called upon someone else, you get up there and you show the world what I'll do if they let me"~ Mark Hall
34weeks, perfect pregnancy, no steroids, no actual measures to get pregnant, three healthy Babies, each 5lbs or more, only gained 38lbs and my health remained PERFECT the entire pregnancy. Babies were only in the NICU for 10 days....
It’s called FAITH, called Believing in yourself and Gods AMAZING work. It’s called walking blind and knowing one day you will see the light. I never was afraid I wouldn't be a Mother; I just didn't know how it would happen. I was willing to do whatever it took and I think God saw my faith in him and trusted me...
I will never understand how I got to be sooooo blessed, but I would go through all the trials we went through again... A million times over to have my 4 BEAUTIFUL Children again...
"We may not have it all together, but together we have it all"
And That is our story!!!
Sincerely,
The Talbot Family of 6
I was 25 when I met the Man of my Dreams. I knew from the first kiss he was the one for me! The Dreams and aspirations I had for our life ahead of us was often hard at times to have the patience with God to wait for each and every one of those dreams to come true. I can look at our wedding Photos and feel the love we had for each other that day, I can see in my eyes the excitement for our future! With a simple word "I do" I felt free to run with our dreams, to let go and let God take the wheel...
But sometimes things happen that are out of our control, sometime God hands us challenges to make us stronger within, and as a couple, so that one day when he does answer your prayers, your heart is ready for them.
Eric and I struggled to have a baby... for a year and seven months Eric and I prayed that God would bless our home with a baby. Test after test with the Doctors and EVERY test came back fine "There was nothing wrong with us" yet my heart couldn't accept the fact that we weren't getting pregnant. I wanted to know the answers and I began to think there was a problem that they are missing and "Once Satan tells you, " you have a problem" is when Satan tells you "you are the only one with that problem"~Mark Hall
No one talks about having problems getting pregnant, or miscarriages... Until you struggle with it yourself... Then and only then do people start talking. You wonder why no one ever says anything, why they don’t tell you how hard it can be at times or how heart braking it is too loose a baby....I am and will be the first to speak up to someone when they struggle getting pregnant and say "you are not along, I walked in your shoes and I am a living testament of Faith in God that HE CAN AND HE WILL if you just let him!!" I know it is not easy for everyone, I have been there!! I know that for some people there isn’t a medicine out there that will give them what we have been blessed with but I will say "If there is a will there is a way!!!"
I remember MANY times in my life being faced with challenging things that I NEVER thought I would over come... I thought many times "God what is the deal, The only thing I wanted MOST in life was to be a Mother, I wanted it more than Life itself and yet I just couldn't have it. There was "Nothing wrong with us" then WHY GOD!!” I fell to my knees many times, praying for God to just hear me... "Wasn't I worthy of this gift you give to people all the time Wasn't I as good as the other people out there that you bless Children with, I had so many challenges in my life and I couldn't understand them, but I took them and I excepted them.. But God this one I just can’t swallow, this one I am going to fight you for!!!"
Sometimes in life we pray for things that we REALLY want, We think if God could just give us this one thing "I will never ask for another thing in my life" (and through life we will pray that a million times, and God will laugh every time) And at some point God will actually see that you are ready for the gift you REALLY want. It’s like being a Child and really wanting something and your parents knows you are not "old enough" to have, and one say out of the blue we miraculously are. Like the day your parents take you for your first bike, first time they let you drive a car... God works the same way. It’s not that he can’t hear you; he just knows what is best for us and when we really need it.
Many times in life are we handed things that we don't think we are "good enough" for and we don't except Gods belief in us that we are GOOD ENOUGH!! We turn our selves away from his blessings and open our eyes to all the negative things that surround that blessing because we don't feel "worthy" of his love, the power of his love.
I remember the day that I realized Gods plan for our lives, I was talking to a Doctor and he wanted me to take another Medication and I was SOOO tired of all the meds that I wanted to take the next step. Nothing was working, yet they said NOTHING was wrong!! So WHY then... I said to the Doctor, "No More Meds lets go the next step, and he said Ok" That month I took shots to ovulate and we did an IUI.(Not to be confused with IVF where they take eggs and fertilize them and then implant them) What we did was I ovulated eggs and they insert the Eric’s sperm right into the uterus...But the first time we did that the night before the procedure the Doctor called me and said I had ovulated 32 eggs and 12 were viable.. (Yes I could have gotten pregnant with 12 babies that time.) The Doctor told me I shouldn't go forward unless I was willing to do "selective reduction" if I got pregnant with all 12. Selective reduction is like an abortion and I was not ok with that at all.
My heart sank, I thought, “why was God pushing me sooo hard to go forward and now that I am here he is taking this from me??” I in that moment felt peace and heard "TRUST ME, I WILL NOT HARM YOU" and I said to the Doctor, "Every bone in my body is telling me to go forward with this, if I get pregnant with multiples I will handle it!! I have Faith in God that we will be ok so yes let’s go forward" Only 5% get pregnant on the first try and that is how Allison came to us.
After that I was so in love with Allison that I said to God, if she is the only Baby that you bless my heart with then I am BEYOND GREATFUL to you. We stopped trying and enjoyed our lives together. Our BEAUTIFUL family of Three.
A year and a half later I was not feeling well; I was trying to lose a little weight for our friends wedding. I wanted to look good in this dress I had and I only had 5lbs to lose but for some reason I COULDN'T lose the weight. I told Eric I was going to take a pregnancy test, I said "I know I am not pregnant but I will just see" Going into the bathroom I was 100% prepared to see the negative I had seen a MILLION times... Then the positive showed up and I almost passed out. Eric was upstairs and I yelled for him... "OMG ERIC!! OMG I CANT BELIEVE IT!!! OMG HONEY WE'RE PREGNANT!!!" He came running down the stairs, and looked at the pregnancy stick and I fell to my knees crying and thanking God!! I couldn't believe it we did it on our own and God blessed our home again. I held Allison and we were sooooo happy!! We called our parents, told our friends WE WERE SOOO HAPPY.
We went to our first appointment and the Baby was fine but they thought I was pregnant with twins and something was wrong with one of the twins so to come back the next week and do another ultrasound...
Our Happiness was short lived and began a downward spiral of heart break. 9 weeks of heartbreak to be exact!! Something was wrong with our Baby, but his/her heart was beating… My glimmer of hope that things will be ok...My Glimmer of hope that HAUNTED me for months to pass... but this time there was no prayers, no medicines that could help us.. I remember the day like it was yesterday when my Dad pulled up and got out of the car... My Dad is a strong Man; I have only seen him cry a few times in my life. We are very close but he is a Dad and always had to be the strong one... That day my Dad got out of the car, and I ran to him like a child running to her Dad when he gets home, and he held me and we both cried...On August 4, 2010 we miscarried our baby. To this day it is still painful but I am SOOOOOO BLESSED to have had those 9weeks with that Baby!! I learned ALLOT about life, love and appreciation for the BLESSINGS God has given us in life. That Baby brought Eric and I so much closer, I learned to Love even more that day and I trusted in God that one day we will be blessed again..
9months later I still hadn't started and I had lost my patience, I wanted to move on with my life, I wanted a Baby so bad again to replace the hole in my heart that was created from the loss... But I didn't want to do what we had to do to have Alli. I wanted it to happen naturally because it was really trying on my body. I wasn't willing to do that to Allison so I trusted in the Doctors again. I remember the day the Doctors offered me to take a round of clomid to get me to ovulate. I jumped on that like a heartbeat. I was READY TO MOVE ON!!
Again I didn't think we would get pregnant because I had taken 6 rounds of clomid in the past and it hadn't worked. So I took the meds, saw I ovulated and that is the month the Triplets blessed our home. I remember Eric and I went to the store to get the test, again being prepared that we weren't pregnant, that the overwhelming fear of loss and rejection came over me but I took the test... I patiently watched the stick, tick...tick... tick....PREGNANT!!!
"OH GOD, SERIOUSLY!! IS THIS TRUE!!!" Eric was in the other room and I walked out of the bathroom crying, he looked at me and frowned and said "Its ok Baby, we will try again next month" I was so happy I couldn't see through my tears and kept shaking my head and handed him the test. His eyes filled with tears and said "NO WAY, SERIOUSLY?!?!?!? OMG SERIOUSLY!!" And we both hugged for what felt like a lifetime, felt like we hadn't seen each other for months and in that moment… our Hearts healed from the loss. We were sooooo EXCITED but that fear it would happen again kept us from telling everyone. We told our Family and two of our Best Friends and asked for prayers.
Every day till my Doctors appointment was like a lifetime. I was cramping and I was prepared for another loss. When we showed up for the appointment my Heart was ready to see the loss but to our surprise the Baby was ok, I was soooo overjoyed I started to cry... Then she saw the second Baby and I laughed and cried in happiness... And then she saw another Baby and I couldn't believe it... We were pregnant with TRIPLETS!!! "Is this really happening to us, OMG WE ARE HAVING TRIPLETS!!? We lost one and area now blessed with three!!"
For Months I felt I was just walking the motions of the pregnancy, I was afraid of another loss, We were faced with a Doctor who wasn't the most positive man alive and he tried to convince me to get rid of one of the Babies which didn't create a good conversation between us... needless to say I moved on to Dr.Zinotti who was a GOD SEND!!
I prayed for strength, something that would help me understand why us and we heard a saying very much like this "If I wanted somebody else I would have called upon someone else, you get up there and you show the world what I'll do if they let me"~ Mark Hall
34weeks, perfect pregnancy, no steroids, no actual measures to get pregnant, three healthy Babies, each 5lbs or more, only gained 38lbs and my health remained PERFECT the entire pregnancy. Babies were only in the NICU for 10 days....
It’s called FAITH, called Believing in yourself and Gods AMAZING work. It’s called walking blind and knowing one day you will see the light. I never was afraid I wouldn't be a Mother; I just didn't know how it would happen. I was willing to do whatever it took and I think God saw my faith in him and trusted me...
I will never understand how I got to be sooooo blessed, but I would go through all the trials we went through again... A million times over to have my 4 BEAUTIFUL Children again...
"We may not have it all together, but together we have it all"
And That is our story!!!
Sincerely,
The Talbot Family of 6
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